My results from the personality test on www.smalley.cc


Captain 45
Social Director 45
Steward 32
Navigator 33

I have no idea what to make of this

Have you ever had one of those conversations that you have no idea what the other person is talking about....i just had one of those....they just leave you really confussed....and i don't like to be confussed...i called to ask a couple of questions dealing with a trip I am taking this summer and he just got all freaky on me.....it started to scare me because he was asking questions that I had never been asked before by anyone (girls have not even asked me these type of questions before in our little girl parties)...I had no idea how to answer them....i felt like i was being crossed-examined about things i didn't understand and that i was working on beating around the bush with my answers...do i really want to go on this trip this summer....do I still feel God calling to this trip.....I have no idea...I need to get this figured out soon...thats enough about that...i just needed to get it out....

On the brighter side....we won one of our softball games today....we played Ozarks....the first game we lost 3-1...the next game we won 1-0....it went into extra innings...it was awesome to win the game....we are playing again at 11 and 1 tomorrow....hope you would come out and cheer us on...we are playing the ozarks again...hope to see you there

Well...it finally happened....we have attacked Iraq....but I am not going to talk about that because everyone else is...and I know I like to read about other things...so this entry is not about war at all...I promise....

Anyways....my parents finally made it here tonight...it is good to see them again...I do miss them and sometimes wish that I could see them more....but I guess this is all part of growing up....my brother is somewhere around here on campus....If you see him...tell him happy birthday....his birthday is today (17)...just don't do anything to him...just say happy birthday....

Today at softball practice we had a work out...loads of sprinting and diving and working hitting.....i will probably be sore tomorrow but hey that is a sign of getting a good work out...we have games tomorrow and saturday....come out and cheer your LadyJackets on...

Well its of to bed for me.....see ya at the games tomorrow at 1 and 3 and the softball fields

Oh...yesterday we lost our games...but #8 hit 2 2-run home runs back to back yesterday

Have you noticed how God will bring along someone or something to help you just when you need it.

Last week, while at Panama City Beach I was disappointed at the beginning of the week because I wasn't getting much response to the surveys we were taking to get a conversation going. Then on morning during our sessions the speaker was talking about divine appointments and if you want one just ask for one. So I did. I also think that my partner did that morning too. Later that day after walking past numerous people, two guys called out to us. We talked with them and tehy took the survey. They were really open to what we were saying. One of the guys asked "where did God come from?" My partner and I had no answer for him then.

Later that night, while reading a "case for faith", I came across an answer for the guy's question. So the next day we were prepared. We went to where we saw the guys the day before. They weren't there. We both were disappointed. However, we talked to two guys from France going to school here in the US. I had a wonderful conversation with the one I was talking to. After talking to them for a while, we decided to head back to where we were staying. We started to walk along the beach where the sand is dry. After a while our calves began to hurt so we went down to the water edge to walk. Not more than 2 mins later, the two guys came walking by. They were actually looking for us. Amazing. God answered our prayers that day. Just think if we decided to kept walking along where we were earlier, we probably would never have ran into these two guys to answer their question about where did God come from.

God is awesome. I have also met someone from UNCA. This person is really awesome. J has been there for me when I needed someone to talk to last week. I thank God for him. He heard my rants but he also heard praise stories. He was the person that could handle what I was going through and God knew it and put him in my life.


Anyways....our games were canceled today....we have games tomorrow at UT-D. we will see how that goes...

Just a reminder....

Home softball games at 1 and 3

Hope to see you there

Here are somethings that I learned in the morning and evening sessions I attended in Florida...Will tell a lot more this week about how God is working in my life and in the life of the people I talked to.......

On monday we talked about living zealously in an apathetic world...our vision for life will drive our level of zeal.....zeal as a part of God's character (Is 9:6-7; Lk 2:4-51; Jn 2:13-17; Heb 12:2-3)...If Christ had not been a man of zeal, he would not have endured the cross and we would be spiritually dead....How to develope zeal in your life....Experience Christ not just know Christ....internalize truths from word of God (what you believe always drive your behavior)...Intentionally be around zealous people....embracing God's vision rather than the world.....Why do non-Christians have more zeal than Christians?? Witnessing is also a family business

Can't understand the heart of God without knowing the cross....Satan's biggest tactic is to take a foundational belief and portray it in a way that mocks it and make everyone laugh.....Luke 15:1-32...shows a picture of God's heart.....1st panel-Christ as the shephard-divine tenderness.....2nd panel- Women seeks diligently-divine earnestness...3rd panel-father accepts underconditionally-divine fatherhood.......What do you see when you focus on the cross......3 aspects of God....Heart of holiness, heart of love, heart of power....Are you moved enough with what God has done for us? Cross allows us to live day-to-day....We have to see the cross...we were worth the cross...to see the compassionate heart of Christ we have to see the cross

Tuesday: experiencing the truths instead of just knowing.....Divine Gift- Jn 14:16-17- God the Spirit was given to us to live with us forever.....1 Cor 2:12- Spirit=Birthday gift @spiritual birth....2 Sides of Christian walk- present danger- Gal 3:3....self-effort.....Gal 5:13,17....pleasing yourself....How to experience intimate journey....Gal 5:16,25....you and spirit dance together...experience relationships....Gal 5:22-23...what it looks like in a relationship....Empowering Presence....Eph 3, 16-17

That night was the women's talk about guys (of course) but it was more focues on how to encourage our guy friends to be godly....

Weds...Obey your thirst....Obedience of the heart is the heart of obedience (oswald chambers) 2 Cor5 - earthly home is temporary hard to thirst for something you dont understand....Eccl 3:11 God set eternity in our heart....Ps 62....Find what we truly long for....
Surrender- your rights 1 cor 7:22 we owe God our lives
Pray-be honest God knows what we think-show me how he cares for me
Remember- Duet 6:12, 1 Chr 16:13 ps 103:2 how to have anchor of God's faithfullness
Identity-your longings...honest with those desires
Trust God- allow God to be God...Heart is thirsty and you can fill it but nothing on earth can fell the thirst
Eternal perspective
Got to chose to trust God....What God wants for our lives is not always what we want......God does not give us what we want, he gives us what we would want if we knew everything he knew...journals is a modern day memorial... Longings controlling my life? Are they hindering my relationship with God? are they weakening my faith in his goodness and character? Am I allowing them to breed discontemptment in my heart? Do I want the fulfillment of this desire more than I desire God? .... Rom 8:23-25....Longings are blessing because they keep us fixed on God....Temporary pleasures distracts us from eternal pleasures..


Thurs....eternal perspective...2 Cor 4-5...motivation...life is about perspective...3 perspectives...suffering, glory, brevaty of life....focus on things not in this life, but on things to come in Heaven...why is it difficult to set our minds on things of heaven?

Vision, compassion, mission....
Jesus saw what others missed-share in his vision...wants me to see the crowds as he sees them- share in his vision....Jesus had compassion(to suffer with)...give God your heart so you can feel what God feels...He wants us to reach out to them...he wants us to do what he wants us to do...